4/11/11

   My Week Off.

This past week we didnt have any teams so the mission adventure staff was given the week off.  The week had its ups and downs.  The first few days were nice.  I didnt do to much, kind of just sat around and played video games, caught up on sleep, hung out with the other staff, watched some movies.  About half way through my week off I began to feel unproductive.  I still had half the week off still though so I began to find some productive things to do such as, having quiet times with God, reading my bible more, reading a book, doing random stuff around the base, cleaning a little bit.  So I was able to do some productive things.  The break was helpful in many ways.  I was able to catch up on much needed sleep.  During the previous four weeks I didnt have very much down time. There was always teams coming in and out that I was working with and pouring most of my time and energy into.  Now I am ready and excited to go back to work this week.  This week we also dont have a team, but the mission adventure staff is going to be doing ministry in the area.  I am not exacly sure what kind of ministry yet but we should be keeping ourselves busy.
    One notable thing from this past week.  This past week, for two nights in a row, as I was laying in my bed, it was hard for me to get to sleep because I had some anxieties.  As I relfected and tried to resolve these anxieties God kind of showed me that the root cause of these anxieties was that I was scared of not being in control of my future.  God showed me that I needed to give my future to him and put it into his hands.  My future is something that I guess I hold tightly to.  I needed to be reminded though that my future is much safer and better in God's hands than it would ever be in my hands.  The verse from romans 8:28 came to mind, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who^[a] have been called according to his purpose." This has been an almost cliche verse for me throughout my YWAM journey but it reminded me and gave me revelation that God is always good.  He always works things for my good becuase of his great love.  My future is much better in his hands then in my own.

peace and love
Elliot